becoming a midwife….finally!

Well, I finally made it, I just finished all my made up time work (in the 3 weeks that was supposed to be holiday at the end of the course!) and tomorrow is officially the last day of my course. So I will be no longer a student midwife, but a midwife, which is a slightly scary thought! Up until now, I’ve had somebody looking over my shoulder the whole time, not literally, especially this year, I’ve been given quite a lot of independence, but there has always been a qualified midwife looking over my documentation and making sure that I know what I’m doing, and that I’m doing the right thing.

I start a new job as a registered midwife in a few weeks time, when my PIN number comes through from the NMC, and I’m quite excited to be given that responsibility, to be working with woman, it’s something I’ve wanted for over 10 years now, and to finally be here is quite overwhelming. When I hit send on the last email to my personal tutor to get work signed off, I went blank for a moment, and then realised I was crying and couldn’t stop. It’s been an emotional rollercoaster over the last 3 years, with doses of extreme anxiety, a high level of marital  debate, never enough time for anything, and rarely any time off. The constant lack of funds has been a major source of stress, and childcare has been difficult at times.

The bits I will remember fondly from my course, my student friends, we have kept each other sane, even when we were all losing the plot, and laughing hysterically at nothing at all! They have been my rock, and have always been there, even when things were really tough. And the women, the lovely women I have cared for, and watched over as they do the hardest job of their life, growing a baby, birthing a baby, and becoming a mum. It is a privilege to be part of their lives while they struggle, and grow and change. And while they are going through all this stuff, they have always been nothing but kind to me, and grateful for whatever support I manage to give them.

If you are starting your journey towards becoming a midwife, I would like to tell you that you are a unique individual, and what you bring to working with women is personal to you. During the course, you will discover reserves of strength you never knew you had, and be amazed at the skills you will gain, you will end up doing things you would never have believed yourself capable of. Being with woman is thrilling and challenging, it will be the work of a lifetime, and well worth it.

Good luck! xx

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Second Year Blues

So… this blog kept me sane during my second year studying midwifery. It was really important for me to pass on some of my experiences, so that they weren’t in vain. With the benefit of hindsight, second year of the course was probably one of the toughest years of my life, only coming after the years each of my babies was born!

I wasn’t the only one who struggled, I’ve talked to other midwifery students who had similar anxiety levels on starting new placements, even ones I had already worked in the previous year. There were nights I couldn’t sleep, for worrying about the day to come, and woke up in the morning exhausted and dreading the day ahead. There wasn’t any particular reason for these feelings of anxiety that I could pin down, my mentors were great, I wasn’t getting negative feedback on my performance, I didn’t have any traumatic experiences. I think I have to put it down to just feeling overwhelmed by the need to step everything up a gear. There’s a huge difference between practicing as a first year and second year student midwife.

Once you’re in the second year, your mentors expect you to be able to, for example, manage a bay of 4 women on the antenatal or postnatal ward, for a shift. Obviously you spend quite a bit of time discussing your plans of care with the mentor to make sure you’re not missing anything or making mistakes, but some mentors will let you accept handover of care for those women in the morning, and hand care over to the next shift in the evening yourself, while under supervision. This is a huge step up in terms of responsibility, and even though you are well-supported through this, it’s stressful.

I’m thinking about this again at the moment because I’m half way through third year now, and starting to think about applying for jobs, and I’m realising that there’s going to be another seismic shift, when I become totally accountable for my own practice. Every time one of our tutors or midwives on placement reminds us “not long now, you’ll be in the navy blue soon…” we all groan in horror. It shouldn’t be so scary, but we’re all very aware that soon we will have the lives of women and children in our hands.

I don’t know how I got through second year, my home life suffered, my family walked every step of the way with me. I’m stronger now, without a doubt, but I do wonder about the cost. I hope that the experience of becoming a qualified Registered Midwife won’t be too traumatic, and am actively seeking a job in a Trust that prioritises induction and preceptorship, so that I can feel supported through this huge transition.

My Ghana Elective – soulsearching and culture shock…

After spending a month in Takoradi with Work the World, I wanted to share some personal reflections on my experience, in the hope of helping other student midwives considering a placement in Ghana. Before I do that, I would like to thank the Iolanthe Midwifery Trust, who made my journey possible, through a generous grant. The Trust is an amazing organisation that is committed to supporting student midwives who want to challenge and stretch themselves, worth a look at their website if you are considering an overseas elective: http://www.iolanthe.org

I spent two weeks in Effia-Nkwanta, a large regional hospital which was also a referral centre, and two weeks in Jemima Hospital, a smaller private maternity hospital, allowing me to see different aspects of healthcare provision in Ghana, and to explore both in quite a bit of detail.

The first thing to emphasise, is that much of the midwifery practice you will see in Ghana will be very similar to that in the UK or any other developed country. The differences lie partly in cultural attitudes to birth, pain, bereavement, and death, and partly in the greatly reduced resources available, mainly translating into vastly reduced numbers of midwives. The other noticeable difference is the lack of evidence-based care, and adherence to models of care dating back to the ‘50s, familiar to fans of ‘Call the Midwife’.  Most of the commonly used midwifery drugs are available, along with clean needles/syringes and gloves, handwashing facilities and soap (but not towels). There is a decent theatre at the hospital for cesarean sections, and the doctors are extremely well-trained and up-to-date.

The antenatal care in Ghana is very similar to that provided in the UK, although there is much less time for each appointment. Similar infectious disease and blood group testing is done in early pregnancy, a very brief history is taken from the woman, malaria prophylaxis, ferrous sulphate, vitamin B complex, multivitamins and high-dose folic acid are routinely given all the way through pregnancy.  I would advise starting out on your first day in antenatal clinic, as this is a very familiar setting, and routine, except for the huge numbers of women being seen very fast! You may start out doing 40 or 50 blood pressures, and then graduate to SFH measurement, palpation and auscultation with Pinard. It’s great fun, and you can learn some basic Fante very quickly in this setting, due to the constant repetition.

Intrapartum care is a more challenging environment, as the practice varies more from the UK, and the cultural norms are completely removed from our comfort zone. I found that in my first week on labour ward I experienced culture shock, partly from seeing midwifery practices I considered outdated, but also from seeing the conditions in which the women labour and birth their babies, in an open ward with little or no privacy. The experience of culture shock is very personal, in my case, I had one shift where I felt completely dislocated, and unable to understand the attitudes of the Ghanaian midwives, or of the women they were caring for. It was an overwhelming experience, and I was so relieved when that shift ended. I spent the next couple of days wondering why on earth I had come to Ghana, and what I had hoped to learn! By my second week, I made it my mission to learn more about the whole maternity unit, and spent some time each on Antenatal Ward, Postnatal Ward, NICU and Antenatal Clinic. My way of coping if I don’t understand something is to research the hell out of it! I read the women’s histories, the ward record books, looked at maternal mortality statistics, and discussed midwifery practice with the senior obstetric consultant. During that period of reflection, I found myself asking: What does my practice need to be here? What do I do in this situation? Can I follow NICE guidelines in these working conditions? How do I prioritise, when there are 5 women on labour ward and only one midwife apart from myself?

When I returned to Labour Ward, after reflecting on and processing my experiences of the first week, it was with an increased understanding of the health system, renewed enthusiasm, and increased respect for the Ghanaian midwives and their ways of working in very difficult circumstances, with humour and efficiency. After much soulsearching, I came to understand better the dilemmas that the midwives were facing, and some of the reasons they were practicing in the way they were. I came up with answers that worked for me, and began to confidently discuss care plans with the midwives, often suggesting increased mobility for the women in first stage, and change of position in second stage. One of my priorities was to prevent routine episiotomy for primips, and I was successful in this regard in the 2 weeks I worked at Jemima Hospital. I delivered one primip on hands and knees, with an intact perineum, and the midwife who observed me declared herself to be so impressed she was going to try it herself!

I loved my time in Ghana, I felt that I both lost my way and then found it again, and in the meantime discovered myself as a midwife, completely reviewed every aspect of my practice and why it was important, and gained massively in confidence in my own midwifery skills and practice.  I am going into my third year with a completely different mindset, ready to take on the world! I would recommend Ghana as a midwifery placement to anybody who wants to be challenged and learn more about themselves, as well as have an opportunity to visit this amazing country.

 

International Day of the Midwife

Community Midwifery Education Program

Community Midwifery Education Program (Photo credit: Canada in Afghanistan / Canada en Afghanistan)

I couldn’t let today pass without posting to mark it. I spent some time today logged into the Virtual International Day of the Midwife Conference, it has been amazing, with an incredible variety of presenters, and subjects from all over the world.

The midwife who left me lost for words was Leah Kavere Amadi, who works for UNFPA in South Sudan, on working in war-torn post-conflict societies. Her discussion of the difficulties faced when trying to look after birthing women in these environments was very moving. Imagine training a healthcare assistant for months, so she  can help you in dealing with an emergency, or assist labouring women while you are delivering, only to have her disappear one day, because of the continuing conflict. Her presentation was calm and focused on helping people to understand the role of the midwife in countries where there is not only unimaginable poverty, but also the destruction of much of the existing healthcare infrastructure, and ongoing conflict that moves from place to place.

Her priority in the middle of this was to transfer her skills to the local nurse/midwives who are still delivering the majority of women, with the aim of reducing morbidity and mortality.

Her total commitment to her cause was striking, and made me reflect on my own commitment to midwifery. I would love to follow in Leah’s footsteps one day, and work in Africa, providing mentorship and training to local midwives, in some ways it seems like the most important work any of us can do, ensuring that our midwifery skills survive, and that the women we are caring for now and in the future do too.

Iolanthe Midwifery Trust

I have just heard that I have been successful in my application to the Iolanthe Midwifery Trust for a grant of £1,000 to help in covering the costs of my elective placement in Ghana later this year! I was absolutely thrilled to get the news, and would like to thank the Trust for the support they are giving me, I will do my best to make the most out of my elective, and pass my learning on to my colleagues.

As part of the grant, I will be writing a piece, possibly for publication in MIDIRS or Essence, about maternal mortality in Ghana, reflecting on my time spent with woman in the country. This will be later on in the year, but I will keep you posted.

Midwifery books and equipment – what to buy?

You don’t need to buy lots of stuff before you start the course, I know it’s fun to prepare a bit, you need a minimum of stationery, don’t buy midwifery books unless you have lots of spare cash to throw around. All these books are in the library where you can take them out for free and renew them online or over the phone up to five times, before returning them and taking them out again. You can get a lot of midwifery books second-hand on Ebay, if you really want to buy them, it doesn’t matter if it’s not the latest edition, for something like Mayes or Myles, it’s really background reading.

The only possible exception to this is Anatomy and Physiology, it’s quite good to own at least one of these, maybe two. If you learn by highlighting and underlining, the library won’t like you doing it in their books!! My personal preference is for Ross and Wilson, which is an A&P book aimed at nurses, it has full colour diagrams, which really helps, (I’m a visual learner!) and it’s in just the right amount of detail for a degree. However, it doesn’t give you the detail you need on reproductive systems, menstrual cycle, pregnancy, labour and birth, for all of that, you need just one book, Stables and Rankin. (Links for the books are below). The only other book which is really essential (to read, not to own), is Johnson and Taylor, and it will be your bible for placement, as it contains all the details of all the practical skills you will be learning there, including abdominal palpation, testing urine, taking blood, vaginal exams, and countless others.

There will be lots of reading lists given to you by your lecturers, but they don’t expect you to read everything, never mind buy it all! As for midwifery equipment, the only thing I would try to get for free in your first week from the Royal College of Midwives is a Pinard. Don’t buy anything, you just won’t need it, when you are in hospital the equipment is all there, when you are on community, your midwife has a bag stuffed full of everything you will need.

I know it’s tempting to splurge, but save your hard-earned cash, you are probably going to need it down the line, it’s tough being a student!

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Wilson-Anatomy-Physiology-Health-Illness/dp/0443101019

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Physiology-Childbearing-Anatomy-Related-Biosciences/dp/0702044768/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1332705806&sr=1-1

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Skills-Midwifery-Practice-procedures-Self-assessment/dp/0702044806/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1332705834&sr=1-1

Interviews – Personal Philosophy of Midwifery (not as serious as it sounds!)

This sounds really cheesy, and I have seen some writing in this vein that made me cringe, there was this one poem – but I’m going off-topic…

The longer I spend around midwives, and caring for women, the more key experiences I have where I either say to myself ‘I will never treat a woman like that.’ Or  ‘If I can ever be half as good a midwife I will be happy. What she just did was amazing.’

You probably know more about what sort of midwife you want to be than you realise. When you watch midwife TV, e.g. One Born Every Minute USA, are you thinking ‘wow, look at all those beautiful wooden cabinets, that birth centre looks like a hotel, I’d love to work there. They have all the technology, and it’s so modern.’

Or are you thinking ‘Why are they giving her an epidural when she’s just walked in the door? She can’t be more than 2cm dilated.’ Have you read any of Ina May Gaskin’s books? Did you love ‘Call the Midwife?’ or did you prefer ‘One Born’? Do you shout at the TV every time someone in a soap gives birth in less than a minute lying on their back?

Every midwife is different, and it helps going into an interview knowing where you stand on some of the current headline issues in midwifery, like:

  • current changes to the NHS – good thing or bad thing?
  • Interventions in labour, necessary or unnecessary?
  • midwifery-led care, dangerous and inadvisable or a cheap way for low-risk women to give birth?

I have to say, there are no ‘wrong’ answers here, it’s all about your values, and how you are going to apply them once you are qualified. The very process of becoming qualified will probably change your views on some issues, as you learn more about the science, but your core values rarely change. I would encourage you to expose yourself to as many different views of midwifery as possible, and think about your emotional response to each of them. You already have a personal philosophy of midwifery, you just may not know what it is yet!

You will learn a lot about yourself in the process, and that’s half the battle, self-awareness being one of the key goals of the midwifery degree. You have to be able to understand your own values and your own reactions to people, in order to provide equal care to all the women you meet. Demonstrating a degree of self-awareness on your personal statement and in your interview will make the right impression.

Inspiring Mentors

Your mentor is your gateway to knowledge.

Ask them questions, generally at the beginning they know that you don’t know anything and are happy to explain stuff. Generally it’s not a good idea to ask questions about a woman’s care in front of her.  If you’re in community, in the car is a good time to discuss things you want to know more about. But also remember, you are supposed to look things up and research issues that arise, so don’t be lazy and expect your mentor to answer every tiny thing that pops into your mind, write a list and look in your midwifery textbook, or your skills handbook. Then if this raises further questions in your mind, that’s a good time to raise it with your mentor, as in “I was reading about x last night, and I wondered how that fits in with y,” or “After we saw that lady who had x the other day, I looked it up, and it said she might have problems with y, is that something that’s likely to happen?”

Mentors love it when you look stuff up, and if you ask lots of questions without doing your own research, her default response will become “that’s a really good question, why don’t you go home tonight and look that up, and when you come in tomorrow you can tell me what you found out.”

You’ll probably get the chance to work with other midwives besides your mentor. Observe closely, as this is a great opportunity to see how their practice is different, as you will need to decide yourself how you want to practice after you qualify. You will probably find you take bits and pieces from every mentor you work with, in terms of how they talk to the women, how they explain particular interventions, how they obtain consent, how they go about a vaginal exam, how they record their actions in the notes.

You will bring your own personality to your practice, beyond that, you choose how to work with women.  You will never forget the mentors who inspire you, you will take them with you as you travel on your journey to become a midwife.

Beware of Facebook!

Now you want to be a midwife, you need to think about how you are presenting yourself on Facebook and other social networking sites – Twitter, Tumblr etc.  When you start your course, your tutor will have a chat with the cohort (class) about what’s not acceptable for a midwife to do in public, e.g. drunken nakedness, or photos of same on Facebook.

Social networking is a big area of concern for Health Faculties right now, they are losing several students a year who make inadvisable comments on Facebook or Twitter. Basically, you can’t ever mention anything to do with work on a social network, as it’s considered to be the same thing as announcing it in public, even if your page is only visible to your family and close friends. The reason for that is to do with the fact that anybody can comment on your status and then it becomes  visible to anybody else. Once you have posted something on Facebook, it is considered to be in the public domain, and the same as shouting it in the middle of a crowded street, or emailing it to everybody in the world.

Think about your privacy settings on all your social networks, make sure they are set to the most restrictive settings, Friends Only for everything, before you apply to university. One reason for that is that employers have started to Google applicants, there is nothing to stop Universities from doing the same thing. Everything you’ve ever posted, going back several years, may still be accessible online to people searching your name. From now on, be very careful what you post, and think about your future career!

Google yourself, and see what comes up. It might surprise you! Lots of teachers and academics never have a Facebook profile, because of the difficulties of maintaining the proper professional distance from their pupils in this arena. The same problems apply to midwives, if your clients ever ask to ‘friend’ you, you can’t accept. There is a boundary between providing a service to somebody and becoming friends, which it is not professional to cross.

The NMC Code and Rules and Standards are useful when thinking about these issues, and they have also recently produced advice on social networking for nurses and midwives, if you’re concerned, have a read of this:

http://www.nmc-uk.org/social-networking-advice

How amazing is my job…

How many jobs are there where you get up in the morning and you’re excited to go to work?

Some days, when I’m on a low-risk placement, with a lovely mentor, I am just thrilled to be going to work, I can’t wait to get there. There is something amazing about this job, even in community, when it’s not all about births, it’s the more mundane everyday midwifery work, feeling squirmy babies in  tummies, chatting about women’s small aches and pains, reassuring them that everything is normal, sharing their fears and excitement about the upcoming birth, talking about names for the baby, having a laugh with the Dads.

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I feel privileged to be doing this job, it’s such an intimate relationship we form with our women, a bond born out of a common fascination with birth that we share with them. I love seeing the same women week in, week out, getting to know their older kids, letting them play with the Pinard, listening in as a family to the baby’s heartbeat.

Sometimes we lose sight of how lucky we are to be in these women’s lives at this emotional time, it can become mundane, that’s why I enjoy talking to you guys, who are at the beginning of this amazing journey, you haven’t lost any of that awe at the incredibleness of birth! Or one of my friends at Uni reminds me of why we’re doing this, becoming the best midwives we can be, providing the care that women deserve, being caring and compassionate, and not intervening just for the sake of it, allowing women to find their own path on this journey, joining with them rather than leading them.

Being with woman, says it all.

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